The Sincerity I Found In Him




2024 was the hardest year I have ever had to go through. 

It forced me to accept something I never imagined — a breakup with someone I built a future with, dreamed with, and shared years of love and care. Distance was the biggest challenge, and in the end, it became the reason we had to let go.

Do I hate him? No. Do I still love him? Without a doubt. Love doesn't just disappear just because circumstances change. Letting go was not about falling out of love; it was about accepting that sometimes, love alone is not enough to keep two people together.

But as painful as this year has been, 2025 is about something else. It’s about choosing myself, learning to love myself more, and giving myself space to reflect. Steffen will always be someone I love because no matter where life takes us, he never truly left me. There were times I questioned if he still cared, if he still loved me as deeply as I loved him but then I realized, he was never just my boyfriend. He was my partner, my best friend. And no matter what happens, I know he’ll always have a place in my heart.

We don’t know what the universe or God has planned for us. Maybe our paths are meant to cross again one day, or maybe they’re meant to lead us to different kinds of happiness. But right now, my focus is on my own growth. On healing, evolving, and opening my heart not just to love again, but to a life where I am whole on my own. And if along the way, I meet someone who loves me just as deeply as he did, then I’ll welcome it with open arms.

For now, I’m taking one step at a time, trusting that whatever is meant for me will always find its way. ♥


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